I caught myself being internally negative today. I had thoughts like, "No one wants to hear what you have to say." and "Do you even have any significance to contribute?". It stopped me in my tracks. It's not like me to talk to myself like this, however, I've been in an extreme rut lately. Actually, I've been completely overwhelmed by every aspect in my life lately. From being a wife, a mom, a business owner, a sister, a friend, and the list goes on.
I've been overcommitting and putting too much pressure on myself, and ultimately, I've been comparing. I've been constantly comparing my life's progress and milestones to everyone around me and it's dragging me down. More and more each day.
We all have weaknesses, it's inevitable. But if we focus so much on the negatives and the weaknesses we all posses, it's going to consume us. It's consuming me.
This morning while I was doing my quiet time, I tried to retrace my steps over the last few months. When did I start to get off track, where did I stop making progress? It was when I stopped having a plan. Lately, with Lo in preschool and STILL (9 months later) adjusting to another baby in the house, I stopped having a plan and just flew by the seat of my pants.
Where there is no vision/plan, the people perish. - Proverbs 29:18
Guys, I'm perishing.
Before you feel obligated to throw some pity my direction, let me stop and boldly say that I think we've all felt like we're treading water and we can't any longer, and we're drowning. That struggle and the feeling of failure isn't something we just go out and say. No, we usually respond with an "I'm doing great! How are you?" When we're asked how we've been.
I don't want to sweep it under the rug anymore. I'm choosing focus. I'm choosing truth and I'm choosing to dwell on my strengths. I'm choosing not to let myself be defeated.
Here's how I'm planning on turning this around:
Choose to be intentional - You are needed and were created to impact this world. Be intentional with your time and efforts.
Redefine Success - Success doesn't always equal money. Success can be a fulfilled heart and success can be a happy family. What is REALLY fulfilling and important.
Make a Plan - Our goals and dreams can be overshadowed by the noise of the world. Refocus and stay the path. In my experience, when I'm getting closer to achieving something great, I stumble. Keep going, there's something amazing on the other side.
What are some of the obstacles you encounter with your day-to-day. How to do you stay motivated?